.... at last!
This post is nothing to do with quilting, but it's big news. Well, it is for me. For years I've been fighting various doctors and gynaecologists to get a resolution to my 'women's troubles'. Up till now, because of my lack of children, I've met rigid resistance to doing the one thing which would resolve everything.... but leave me unable to have children.
Now, I realise I'm going out on a limb here, as this decision isn't one everyone understands. In fact, I'd go so far as to say very few people understand, unless they know me well. The thing is, I decided a long time ago that parenthood was not on the cards for me. Don't get me wrong, I love children, I have nephews and nieces that I adore, and I loved having my much younger sisters to stay with me when they were girls - I could do all the fun big sister / aunty stuff and then send them home! But due to circumstances, health problems including a very scary ectopic pregnancy, and the passing of time, it's just not been meant that children were for me, and I'm OK with that. Let's face it, when I was 17 and having my appendix out I asked the doctor to 'take everything else' while he was in there - he told me I'd regret it in later life, but honestly I can't think of one day when I would have.
However, over the last 6 years I have been spectacularly unsuccessful in persuading any members of the healthcare profession that I am able to make that decision, or that even if I wanted them, with my age and the health problems I have, I'd be extremely unlikely to be able to get pregnant.
Over the last 7 months the problems have escalated to the point there they have all but destroyed my quality of life, stopped me doing things I used to love, affected my social life, and threatened to destroy our business, I have finally found a wonderful gynaecologist who understands that the ability to live any kind of life is more important than forcing me to continue with 10% of a life just because I have no kids.
So, today I was approved for a total hysterectomy, and I just have to wait for the op date - hopefully around 8 weeks. I'm nervous, about the op and it's risks, but I'm not devastated about it's implications - far from it. The relief I feel at the thought that there is an end in sight is immense. And if anyone else out there is struggling with similar problems, you have my sympathy and immense understanding, and if you're still fighting to get treatment I really wish you the very best of luck, and if you don't get a resolution, ask for a second opinion. I'm very glad I did.